Sunday, March 30, 2008

A gift from God

I can hardly believe it has been 15 years since we first met. Although you and I were very familiar with each other for a few months. I had dreamed about you for years, your name selected before your conception. God had placed you on my heart.

Then you were here. Your Daddy got you first and I watched as you fell in love with him. Daddy's should always be the first love of a little girl. Your perfectly round head... the little bunch of blonde curls on the back of it... the little yellow dress you wore home. Your squeaky little first cry which made us laugh and wonder what in the world we were going to do with this baby. We marvelled at how much of a beloved and missed family member you resembled. He would have been proud, you know.

Most babies lose weight the first week after birth. Not you. You were all business when it came to eating. You still are. Using a spoon came before walking and a goldfish cracker could solve any problem. It still does.

God has placed a special call upon your heart. Seek Him still and he will let you know in time where you will end up.

I love you very much,

Saturday, March 29, 2008


Dear friend,

Peace be with you. I understand that you are in turmoil and I want to help you.

I understand that you feel betrayed by someone you love. I have been there. This all started with a misunderstanding and a conversation which was shared with me. Know this - more than one person shared this conversation with me on that day. I completely understand how you feel. Since I and my daughter were the topic of your conversation, we also felt betrayed. I personally felt that you did not believe us or the person who defended us. So, in a sense, we are going through the same thing.

Tonight God revealed to me that I had not forgiven you for that conversation, but rather wished it away, and that I was at fault for not talking with you about it immediately. He revealed to me that I was angry in a very unhealthy way - a way that was robbing me of joy. He revealed to me that we need to forgive each other. So I am asking you to forgive me.

As for the change in my daughter, she has made some decisions recently as a result of that event. These are God-led decisions and while you do not understand them, please know they do not mean she loves you any less. She needed to do this for her.

I am praying for you and that peace will surround your life and that of your family.


Friday, March 28, 2008

A Meme

1. The rules of the game are posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post, the player then tags five people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment letting them know they’ve been tagged and to ask them to play along and to read your blog.
What I was doing 10 years ago - 1998
1. Training the first class of Stephen Ministers for our church and mothering a 2 year old and 5 year old
2. Taking Disciple 1
3. Getting ready to Direct VBS
4. I can't remember anything else
5. I didn't have time for anything else!!

5 things on my to-do list today
1. Digest this meal from "The Melting Pot"
2. Finish grading Calculus test papers
3. Control my temper :)
4. Read some before bed

Five snacks I enjoy
1. Bare Naked Granola with yogurt
2. chocolate
3. Cheese Nips
4. potato chips
5. nuts of any kind

Five things I would do if I were a billionaire -
1. Pay the mortgages off
2. Buy my dad a new car
3. Pay the church’s bills off
4. Retire and retire my hubby
5. Build my lake house

Five of my bad habits -
1. eating chocolate
2. gaining weight
3. Leaving things on the floor
4. Leaving the world in my van
5. Biting my fingernails

Five places I have lived
1. Nashville, GA
2. Vidalia, GA
3. Norcross, GA
4. Suwanee, GA
5. Lawrenceville, GA

Five jobs I’ve had
1. Babysitter
2. Ice cream scooper
3. Library assistant
4. Secretary for Campus Minister
5. Math teacher - college and high school

I ain't got nobody else to tag... so if ya wants to do it.... go fer it

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Confrontation... part deaux.... or is that duh.....

Amen ladies. Without even knowing what is going on... you nailed it.
Geez louise.

Today it got worse and instead of responding to something I... ME... SARAH... said... lashes out at L and especially L's bff, E, who is her neice. It is mean and nasty and I work WITH HER. But doesn't have the guts to schedule a private talk with the 3 of us. This is really touchy.

Mama Bear is here signing off and trying not to wig out... but I won't because I am an adult and my sweet L would die of embarrassment. No, really. She totally would.

Mama Bear aka crazy woman who wants to protect her baby

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Confrontation... can I get some help here?

Geez. So someone asked me today why I have been so stand-off-ish lately. Well, this person hurt my daughter a while back and has a tendency to gossip... thus the stand-off-ish because L asked me to just drop it. So I did. And said person also tends to combine and confuse issues. So not only do I have to separate the issues I have to go back to an old event and talk about an old hurt.

I really don't want to do this. Can you tell?

Edited to add:
Well I sent an e-mail to initially separate the issues ... dealt with the non-emotional ones and left an invitation for a PRIVATE discussion between lady and Me and L. Now it's in her ball park.

And if that don't work out so perty... I'm going for the fiddle girl's idee of foamin' at the mouf. Shore 'nuff. And I'm gonna teach L to do it too.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Cheap vs. Old

So when my son looks at a packing list and it says OLD clothes because "you will get dirty", he translates that to "go buy new but cheap clothes at Wal-Mart."

I tell him cheap clothes are not the same as old clothes because those cheap clothes I buy today will still be NEW. And all I buy him is CHEAP anyway because he grows so fast. He is not happy about that revelation.

Apparently I just don't understand.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

He is Risen!

I love Easter for as long as I can remember.
My mother was a music director so I remember many choir practices and sun rise services at the cemetary. I remember my cousin hiding our eggs over and over until she refused to hide them any more. I remember having chicken pox one year. Oh that year was fun. not.

I remember my senior year of high school and Easter was very sad. Very. Sad. I'll tell you why some time but not now. And the next several Easters were sad for me too. Then in 1993 about two weeks before Easter I had a beautiful little baby girl - that was a very happy Easter.

And I realized that I am writing in very choppy sentences... I can't help it - I'm a math teacher. But back to the story.

Back a few years ago, I began taking a journey during Lent. God took me on sometimes painful journeys, helping me to discover the woman He wants me to be. It has been eye-opening and healing. Sometimes I was in the wilderness, sometimes I was experiencing the dark night of the soul, sometimes it was heart-wrenching, but always it was meaningful. But the last two years, it has been something different. Something unexpected and wonderful. Something I have always longed for. I feel JOY.

Now if you know me, you know I can belly laugh. But you also know that I struggle with being joyful. This Easter I am joyful. The only pain I feel is in my face after all the singing today, but I knew that would happen. I have a deep, heart-lightening, resounding joy in God today.

Anyway, I wanted to share that. I hope you are having a blessed Easter. As for me... I'm working Calculus problems. :)

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Setting the Time

Well... when I posted the previous time I hadn't learned how to change my time yet... so it made it seem like way earlier than it actually was. Way. Earlier.

My sweet director is tough, but he ain't THAT tough.

Too Early to Sing

In 30 short minutes I'm supposed to be a choir practice for Easter. I loooooove to sing, but not in the mornings. My soprano is a gravelly bass. My attitude is usually ... well, grr. And I haven't had my coffee yet! Boo.

But I love singing for Easter. The music and the reason for the music is enough to carry me through. And not just Easter.... but life.

So, I am going to grab that cup o'joe and head out in a few minutes. But I don't hafta like that it is so stinkin' early.

Friday, March 21, 2008

Well... are ya happy Lesley?

Okie dokie I've got myself a blog.
Well you are going to hear about a few of my obsessions:
my kids
coffee (you thought I was going to write chocolate)
my students
my weight (sorry but you know it's there)
and anything else I can think of...
like getting back to Alaska to see the Northern Lights

Well... I hope you enjoy :)